"fuckboys" are...

the equivalent patterning of women not valuing ourselves and dating someone who doesn't care for us. 

we also are nervous to speak up about our needs in fear of not being validated. 

a large number of all of our mothers still have subconscious patterning and other trauma---

but we cannot blame them. 

they only shared with us what they knew. And we are here to share what we know to our children and our friends' children etc etc with an even bigger knowing and consciousness of ourselves! 

better parents make better kids. 

maybe your upbringing was frickin frustrating at times because you received advice that just didn't Seeeeeem 100% intuitively logicial to you, but you didn't speak up because "your parents know everything" was the gospel and questioning them felt weird (or you did question them and then got punished for it)----which p much means your strong intuition was still very activated. 

You weren't too far from spirit yet, but also rounding up into a phase where you're questioning everything internally--"puberty" is literally movement of energy (it's like your first baby saturn return!)

That was the pattern often in my early developmental stages and it caused me to learn how to second guess myself about EVERYTHING. overthink-CENTRAL because i was told what was right or wrong for so long that when it came down to it, i didn't know how to choose anything myself OR i would choose something that made the other person happy even if it was uncomfortable. 

THIS PATTERNING SPILLED OVER INTO MY RELATIONSHIPS. 

Energy MOVES y'all. beliefs are energy, it just keeps going the more you hold whatever it is true, it SHOWS. THE HELL. UP. #lawofattraction

(I've since learned that my ability to overthink was a shadow that has been transmuted into having heightened intuition, acute body awareness, and grounding abilities 😉)

ANYWAY i say all this to say, this may not be your experience with your family. Maybe it was something else or with someone else who you call a guardian in your life. 

Either way, the dating culture we get to experience at this time is a really good social experiment on childhood upbringings and parenting styles. 

We are not at the mercy of our old defense mechanisms anymore. 

start to notice how your relationship with your family affects all the other relationships in your life. 

it's all vibration and all on purpose. 

you're a CYCLE BREAKER. 

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woo! breakthru like this make me wanna cackle with laughter and throw up at the same time🤣 PURGE CITY! 

I'll be posting more transmissions here in whatever form they come. 

xx,

K.

ps: i didn't CHOOSE the cat up there, it came with the theme. I literally am still under this tree writing with no intentions of trying to figure out how to make it all cute and perfect before i release whatever it is i'm working on (patterning) and it feels really good and new for me. HA!
anyway i'll change the theme when i get to my laptop.

or not.
does that cat look like my type of pet?🤔
*stares at cat photo whilst under aforementioned tree*

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EDIT: I've since changed my layout to the beautiful soul painting created by Autumn Sage. So beautiful and so speaks to my purpose on this earth. Check out her work at www.autumnskyeart.com